I’ve had a rough couple of weeks. Things just kind of … went off the rails, all at once. This is a typical pattern for me, but it always takes me by surprise when it finally happens.
I sat down the other day, and this just came out of me. It felt like it mattered enough to keep going, so I’m going to share it with you today because maybe you feel the same way I do, and it feels good to know that we’re together in something.
Mid-Month Check-In!! A monthly reflection of all the things. Let’s dive in!
It was a journey, getting over you. You’re the catalyst that launched the whole beautiful life I have now, and your goodbye taught me more about me than any classroom ever could have. Life experience is the best teacher there is, and you’re the one that led me to finding myself.
As tears rolled down my cheeks and going on hour three in that room, I told the psychiatrist I’d just met with a shaky voice that I had been thinking about stopping pumping because I had a feeling I might feel better if I did that but that I wasn’t sure I could because the guilt I felt about it was too overwhelming to deal with.