I sat down the other day, and this just came out of me. It felt like it mattered enough to keep going, so I’m going to share it with you today because maybe you feel the same way I do, and it feels good to know that we’re together in something.
Surprise, you do actually have to keep a tiny human alive with real food! I started taking pictures of his tiny plates because I thought that some way, somehow I could help some other parents (who google what to feed their baby) remember that real food exists and you can, indeed, feed it to your baby.
I can’t believe it’s been a whole year, one whole revolution around the sun, since you joined us in the world. My world completely changed the second you took your first breath. I knew then that you would be my greatest adventure yet.
My mind and body are in a much better place than I was, and that’s all because someone loved me enough to make me get the help I needed, even when I wasn’t willing to do it for myself.
I am a mother. It’s who I am now. It’s not all I am, but it’s a pretty big part. It’s not something I do every day; it’s who I am every day.
As tears rolled down my cheeks and going on hour three in that room, I told the psychiatrist I’d just met with a shaky voice that I had been thinking about stopping pumping because I had a feeling I might feel better if I did that but that I wasn’t sure I could because the guilt I felt about it was too overwhelming to deal with.
With the world’s eyes on her as she debuted her new son, Meghan Markle stood proudly in a white trench coat dress. She’s standing there, all glowy and smiley, actually looking like she had a baby. You guys, that’s awesome.